sTyLeGuY's R.A.N.D.O.M Thoughts

There are times when I feel sad, low or just generally dissatisfied with whatever is going on. Those are the times when I write some words to liven me up, and make me feel more optimistic about everything around. This poem remains my all-time favourite for such moments….reading it makes me feel much better…..instantly.

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF

Believe in yourself,
To the depth of your being,
Nourish the talents,
Your spirit is freeing

Know in your heart,
When the going gets slow.
That your faith in yourself,
Will continue to grow.

Don’t forfeit ambitions,
When others may doubt.
It’s your life to live,
So live it throughout.

Learn from your errors,
Don’t dwell in the past.
Never withdraw,
From the world that is vast.

Believe in yourself,
Find the best of you.
Let the spirits prevail,
Steer a course that’s true.

And if you believe,
The world believes in you.

I’ve gotta make it. Now is the time. I just can’t afford to miss this time. CAT is just round the corner, less than a month to go. And there are other tests in December and January.

I am still not in my best form, got 3 more Mock-Cats to go before D-Day. I’ve left my job in pune and come back to my hometown just to make sure there’s no shortcoming this time. But I often ask myself, “Am I doing justice to my self, my purpose, my dreams ? “. Its quite a bizarre feeling that I have.....

So, here I am, in Pune, all on my own, out to venture a much faster, much more vibrant life. And am I delighted ?

Hmmmm….. pune is a great city to live, study, work, have fun and maybe even settle down. So, having put up at a decent 2BHK flat alongwith a friend’s bro and 4 other guys, who were all pursuing their MBA, I started my marketing diploma classes, which used to be in evenings 6:30 – 9:00. The profs were fine, the batch of 60 (with only 5 gals) had a fine mix of work ex guys, and freshers. Classes continued for a while, and I was getting used to Pune, or rather falling in love with this city. A few days later I realized that I had a lot of spare time, and being in d second week of july, I knew my prep….re-prep rather, for CAT, won’t start until it was mid October. So, I decided….. to take up a job….. at a BPO….. just for fun, at the same time, making some money to help me meet my expenses.

This, irrespective of the fact that I was on the brink of completing the professional course of CS, and was expecting results in a month, after which I would be a qualified professional. Anyways, I was never much interested in that field of work, somehow....

Pune rocks, man !!

Nonetheless, I went to the venue for interviews for the best BPO in Pune, and guess what… I got selected. And landed up a job in the back-office version, unlike the calling job which I was afraid I would have to go for (I guess bcoz of my strong analytical skills, my commerce background, and my un-neutral voice accent !). I was offered a pay packet which was good enough to satisfy all the needs & wants of a bachelor staying out of his hometown (and would still allow me to save enough for the upcoming exams/forms/coaching expenses)…… whoooooa… what else could I ask for !!

So, …..bang….. I joined work the very next day and started with training. Well.. the campus (Cybercity – Magarpatta city, Hadapsar, Pune) absolutely rocked.The infrastructure, the facilities….. everything was so awesome…mind-boggling. I felt like I was working in US/ UK. I was utterly delighted just to be at the campus, forget working there and getting paid well. I later gathered that these awesome facilities are one of the many measures that BPO’s and IT service organizations are employing, for employee retention.

So things started rolling…. My job continued and I came out with flying colours. Even got the best employee award !! And then….. CAT arrived. I was much better prepared this time…. To bell the CAT (I know that’s clichéd, but ….found no better words). And voila, CAT had a new avataar.. differential marking this time. But I managed to do a decent job. Some more time passed on.. and my job continued…. And CAT scores were out .. I had scored a good overall %ile score…. with pretty much balanced scores in all 3 sections. And then I got a GD/PI call from IIM-B ! I just couldn’t believe my ears when a friend called up and told me the news. I went absolutely crazy !! And this was d one and only call I had got this time, having applied only for 3 major MBA entrance exams (CAT, FMS & XAT). I had to make it.. I started preparing for GDPI, and when it actually happened, I was very much satisfied with my performance. So, I was now a hopeful contender of a seat at IIM Bangalore !

But, as the fate would have had it, I didn’t make it finally, for reasons known only to the respected panelists…... morons.

Some more time passed, and I gathered that it had been more than an year in pune, and I had just completed 1 year on-the-job. And again, that fateful period had arrived, to re-prepare for CAT and other MBA entrance tests. Now, I had to take a decision. And I finally took it, on a fateful day in September. Yes…. I was going to resign from d job and then planned to come back to my hometown, for dedicated, committed and focused attempt…. my last attempt……. at the CAT .

So, here I am, at my home, in my room, in front of my comp, with study material, newspapers and business mags strewn all around.

I’ve gotta make it. Now is the time. But I often ask myself, “Am I doing justice to my self, my purpose, my dreams ? “ Its quite a bizarre feeling that I have, still.

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep...

The words of Robert Frost (poem - Stopping by woods on a snowy evening).

These beautiful, immortal words really explain the whole purpose of life. Whenever I read this poem, its a different kind of a feeling.

I want to keep going, I have many promises to keep and many duties to fulfill, I have to walk many miles before I finally sleep in God's cradle, from where I came. Till then, I want to just keep walking.......Keep Walking Ahead In Life.......

I am not a styleguy. I mean…… I am kinda good-lookin, but a styleguy…no. I don’t remember who gave me that name first… some friend of mine, & then suddenly everyone was calling me styleguy. I liked it, and so it continued. Now I seem to like it, a lot. I also had it as my e-mail id for some time, but then some intelligent, knowledgeable dude told me… “It looks so rash n unprofessional..”. Hmmm..I gave it a thought….. for almost 2 months, and then changed my email id to a more professional, sophisticated one. But friends still call me styleguy, and I still seem to like it, and so it still continues, and I still think …. “Am I really so stylish ?”

But it continues.

And so will the writings on this blogspot, no matter what i write or if I laugh at it months later... but the random ramblings shall continue. :-)